Yoga for Recovery 2.6.10

I was not a happy camper this afternoon. I missed a workshop I'd planned on attending for months because I thought it was from 2-5. I had mistaken the time (it was from 1-4). So I sulked all afternoon.

There are a lot of reasons I was upset that I'd missed the workshop. One of the darkest is that I feel like I missed some 'key ingredient' that will make me a better teacher. It grinds on my own hang ups about insecurity and inadaquacy, issues that go a lot deeper than teaching yoga.

It just so happens, however, that the practice of yoga exposes these feelings, and I've jumped into this yoga thing with both feet. I can no longer pretend such feelings don't exist. Sometimes it scares me so much I want to run back to my former role as hardened executive in corporate world where I can make my self feel better by attaining strategic goals, heading fancy board meetings, and building a big fat bank account. Yoga schmoga.

A room full of people showed up for class tonight, a true all level class. One brand new beginner, a few with physical issues, a few seasoned practitioners, and all points in between. I realized, for whatever reason, the workshop wasn't in the cards for me today, but this class is. The act of teaching itself is a potent teacher.

I kicked my foul mood out the door and went to work. As always, I learned a lot, not only about teaching a mixed level class, but also about the futility of thinking I know what all my teachers look like.

By the end of class my romance with going back to the corporate world was over. My heart is full right here on the yoga mat.

Heart opener over bolster
breath awareness
windshield wiper

eye of the needle

downdog (very revealing..stayed clear of vinyasa tonight!)

easy side plank

tadasana
1/4 sun
1/4 free form
lunge salutes with sphinx/seal

tadasana

Warrior I
wide leg janushirsasana
warrior III prep
warrior III

tadasana
uttanasana
other side

malasana

bridge
baddha konasana
bridge
sacrum rest

easy spine twist

supported savasana

sit
OM
Namaste